Monday, 02 November 2009

  • Self-Centered Thoughts (Part 2)

    Please note that I am writing because I don't feel like reading right now.  I was going to start writing again in the New Year, but I kind of wanted to finish my 'Self-Centered Thoughts'.  This will probably be my last post of the year.

    5.  Mortify Sin.  Now that I work, the sins I once wrestled with have been less frequent.  This is definitely not because I have conquered these sins, but mostly because my new lifestyle is not as conducive to these sins.  For example, my working all day long keeps my mind from wandering into idleness and consequent lustful thoughts.  God is teaching me that this is not enough.  It's not enough to just keep busy and sin less because of my busyness.  For one, busyness brings about a whole new spectrum of sins to wrestle with.  Secondly, the previous sins have not been mortified, but just put off.  Lesson:  Busyness does not = mortifying sin.

    6.  Originally my #6 self-centered thought was "Stay Healthy as a working adult".  However, this conviction is not nearly as strong as it was two months ago.  I was able to keep my wait around 138-140, but recently I've gone over 140.  Perhaps I need to start exercising more regularly again.  I gotta reach 135 by December 31 to meet my New Years Resolution.  Ideally, I'd like to be 130, but we'll see.

    7.  Pastor?  Yes, I still want to be a pastor.  I'm scared though.  Everyday I'm noticing so many flaws and deficiencies in my life discouraging me from pursuing ministry.  You are probably aware of several of them if you've known me for any amount of time.  And it's not just character flaws I'm concerned about.  I'm concerned about my ability to relate to people.  I'm concerned about my understanding of the human heart.  I'm concerned about my understanding of the gospel and how to apply it to various people groups.  I'm stinking scared and so not ready.  FYI, I'm about 90% certain I'm going to start seminary in July.  I'm not sure if it's just because I want to be a student again, or if I just want to inch closer to my career, or if that's truly what God desires.  So I guess I'm being foolish for planning on starting in July.  I really don't know, I really just wanna go.  What the heck am I doing guys?

    8.  Love God more.  'Nuff Said.

    Evidence of Grace:  Jesus Christ.

Sunday, 09 August 2009

  • Self-Centered Thoughts (Part 1)

    It is 4:31am right now.

    I'm still in Canada and my parents snore too loud for me to go back to sleep.

    I haven't posted in a long while, and I think that should stop now.

    Here are some thoughts and convictions that have been growing inside of me at least since my last serious post.

    1.  Do hard things.  I haven't read the Harris brother's book, but at least reading Francis Chan's book during Winter quarter - as UNChrist-centered as it was - really challenged me to examine my life and do hard things.  I'm still not good at it.  I like to be comfortable.  There are tons of hard things that I know God wants me to do, but that I have yet to do.  I guess I just haven't grasped very well how our Savior did the hardest thing ever.

    2.  The gospel is for everybody.  God's really convicted me over several individuals; all of whom are extremely different.  Some are what the world would consider to be cool and in.  Others are obviously on the other side of that spectrum.  Yet no matter where these people are on this spectrum, all of them have the same need.  I'm finding that I'm very reluctant to evangelize people who are not like me; especially those who are cooler than me (which is pretty much everybody).  There are a plethora of reasons why, but frankly these reasons shouldn't matter.  People - all kinds of people - are going to hell.  And worse yet, they are not worshiping the God who was pleased to crush His Son out of love for the world.

    3.  Prepare for the future.  It's time to grow up.  It's time (it's always been time) to invest in eternity.  Prepare for what you believe God wants you to be.  Do it wholeheartedly.  In my case, the things I've felt most certain about over the last year are my future in the ministry and my future with Garnet.  Perhaps, I am wrong, but those have been two primary areas of investment for me.

    4.  Be a workman approved by God who correctly handles the Word of Truth.  I still remember Pastor Peter Chung's Winter Retreat message.  I don't know the Word.  After memorizing a few Calvinistic passages (mainly to fuel my pride), I've become rather complacent in growing in the Word.  And then when I think about how I want to be a pastor, I get even more disappointed in myself.  More and more God is showing me what it means to be a pastor and again and again I am convicted over how much I lack in this area.

    There are 4 more.  I'm tired.


    Evidence of Grace:  Jesus, Bry's continually growing love for the Savior, Dennis Johnson, Chris Gee's dinner and perspective, Keng and Stilts, an extended weekend with the family minus Rach, seeing Garnet in Seattle, a new phone that can text, Canadian feasts, ballin relatives, hotel rooms, a job to go back to, iron gym, God's patience, what I once was, but now am (Eph 1-2), time to blog, abundant innumerable graces all around.  GGE

Thursday, 23 July 2009

Monday, 20 July 2009

  • Another Calvinism-Related Post


    I owe a lot to Bay Area Chinese Bible Church.  It is my spiritual birthplace.  Apart from God's grace by the means of this church, I am positive I would not be where/who I am today (not that I'm great or anything, but I AM glad to be saved).  Unfortunately, coming to college and studying the Bible more and under different teachers has caused me to stray from some of the doctrinal positions of my spiritual birthplace.  The most obvious difference is the position on Calvinism.  Though I was and still am persuaded concerning TULIP, I most definitely owed it to my pastor and to my church to better understand their theological position.

    Pastor Steve (my home church pastor; Jess' dad) gave me a book over Spring Break.  It's title is Beyond Calvinism and Arminianism:  An Inductive Mediate Theology of Salvation by C. Gordon Olson.  Pastor Steve told me that he holds to this author's soteriological views.  I didn't start reading it until the beginning of this summer, but I just finished it today.  I'm glad to be done, partly because I disagreed with a lot of what was said, but more so because it was really long (>500pgs).

    I'm glad I read this book.  The position held by Olson is neither Calvinist nor Arminian.  He calls his view a 'mediate theology of salvation'.  In the MOST general sense he is an Arminian that holds to eternal security.  I'm glad I read this book because I've never encountered such a strong and Biblical offense against the Doctrines of Grace before.  Although sometimes unfair and sometimes blatantly offensive, it forced me to go back to several passages and reexamine them.  At times, it was a painful read as the author attacked several of the teachers and scholars I have grown to love and appreciate, but I can say that I have a new respect for those who hold a view other than my own in this area of soteriology.

    I still hold to all 5 points of Calvinism.  I still believe that upholding and teaching them would have positive and significant effects on our church and the kingdom.

    Things to take away from this reading:
    1.  Calvinists need to stop calling people who aren't Calvinists "Arminians"
    2.  People who are not Arminians just because they hold to Eternal Security need to stop claiming a 'Middle Ground'.  Being a half-point Calvinist is not the middle.
    3.  As much as ecclesiology and missiology is affected by one's position on these issues, we should be glad that God is still saving people all around the world.
    4.  Just as there are many Calvinists who love God more than me, there are also many non-Calvinist who love God more than me.
    5.  Christ is adored and exalted by both the Calvinist and non-Calvinist.
    6.  Study the Word.  Study the languages.  2 Timothy 2:15

    I'm just glad I can start reading books that I spent good money on and actually want to read.





    Now...it's time to groom  myself....got an interview at 1p....please pray for me....



    Evidence of Grace:  Jesus, youtube, books, time, interview in less than two others, the prayers of my brothers and sisters who have all been counted righteous by our gracious LORD.  GGE

Monday, 13 July 2009

Sunday, 12 July 2009

  • it's been a while...

    I'm not exactly busy, but I've been trying to use my time effectively.

    Hopefully tomorrow I'll post about what's been going on with me.

    Sorry if that does not interest you.

    I finished reading D.A. Carson's Memoirs of an Ordinary Pastor today.  I'm so glad to have read it.  It was so good it made me want to start a 'MUST READ' list of books, just so I can list it.  I'll probably start that list soon.

    If I finish my Calvin, Greek, and Calvinism vs Arminianism reading tomorrow, I get to start Richard Baxter's The Reformed Pastor.  I'm pretty excited about it because I've heard great things about the man and even greater things about the book.  Almost every pastor who contributed to Dear Timothy recommended it.  Several of the pastors that C.J. Mahaney has been interviewing have mentioned it as well.

    I should have been asleep 5 minutes ago.  Talk to you tomorrow.


    Evidence of Grace:  Jesus, that people worshiped today, garnet and janet.  GGE

Monday, 29 June 2009

Thursday, 25 June 2009

  • MJ23 > KB24

    I don't say this because I'm a Laker hater, but because I now believe it.

    I even used to say that I thought Kobe was the greatest player of all time, but this video has changed my opinion.

     

    However, I do believe that in a 1on1 game, Kobe would probably take MJ.  But I also think that King James would beat Kobe 1on1.  But then I think that Dirk and KG would probably take King James 1on1.  And I think KG would take Dirk.  So does that mean KG is the best ever?

    Skill wise...I'm going with MJ (at least for now).

    ps..im excited for the draft


    did michael jackson die?


    Evidence of Grace:  Jesus, Garnet, Tom Carson, Toby Yuen, UCI Special Events Parking and Transportation, Kiosk, Internet.  GGE
  • Calvin on an analogy from Ambrose concerning the impuation of righteousness.

    Wherefore, Ambrose appears to me to have most elegantly adverted to the blessing of Jacob as an illustration of this righteousness, when he says that as he who did not merit the birthright in himself personated his brother, put on his garments which gave forth a most pleasant odour, and thus introduced himself to his father that he might receive a blessing to his own advantage, though under the person of another, so we conceal ourselves under the precious purity of Christ, our first-born brother, that we may obtain an attestation of righteousness from the presence of God. The words of Ambrose are,—“Isaac’s smelling the odour of his garments, perhaps means that we are justified not by works, but by faith, since carnal infirmity is an impediment to works, but errors of conduct are covered by the brightness of faith, which merits the pardon of faults,” (Ambrose de Jacobo et Vita Beats, Lib. 2, c. 2). And so indeed it is; for in order to appear in the presence of God for salvation, we must send forth that fragrant odour, having our vices covered and buried by his perfection.
     
    -Calvin's Institutes 3.11.23

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